lost my fiance to cancer in March.

[AJ]

Lost my boyfriend/finace to Pancreatic/Liver cancer in March.  Been some months now.  Also my Job now is putting me through some changes since then, and I just feel like an alien sometimes.  I have family support, but just don't understand why certain things happen to me lately.  I have also lost my son's dad 13 years ago, and also lost a boyfriend before this one.  I feel like a Black Widow.  

just feel lost lately.

 

[Lulu]

maybe the sense of lost comes from the overwhelming feeling of grief. when we are in grief all past unresolved grief weights us down even more. every bad experience, anything negative we lived before comes tumbling down on us.  I lost my job to do my loss I'm in the process of De-alienating myself so you're not alone. The wonderful man i was dating died in December before him i never had a partner die. only had horrible relationships and it made me feel like I was not allowed to be happy in a relationship once i found someone great he was taken away. I felt lost and started to wonder why i was being punished.

I feel grief is forever because we never get over the loss we will never be the same again. all we could do is make a better life and not allowed grief to control us.

[Billie jo]

I am sorry for your loss I am new to this but I also lost my mom to pancreatic cancer on March 31st

[AJ]

Thanks ladies.  Helps to know I am not alone.  It is hard.  Changes are hard too, but your right LuLu....just need to not let it control us. And it sucks when the only man that we ever really had a good relationship with dies.  Hard to grasp sometimes.  I am sorry ladies about your losses as well.  Billie Jo .... my thoughts are with you as well.   Thanks for your support. and if you ever need anything , just shout out.