So when that person passed away that word or phrase some how left with them.

[Jenny Robinson]

   Is it me or is it hard sometimes to hear a certain word, or phrase that a loved one said?

For example my mother used to always tell me "There's always more fish in the sea.". She'd use this phrase when I'd have a fight with my boyfriend. And now ever time I hear it, I just wanna break down and cry. 

   And it's not even simple phrases either, it could be a simple word like Mother, Father, Brother, Sister, Husband, Wife, etc. 

    For me it would have to be the word Mother. After my Mom passed that word has had a pain attached to it. I hear the word Mom or Mother and I just wanna break down and cry. I think this is because that word once held a person to it. A person who loved me, and took care of me, never failing to be there when I needed them.

                  So when that person passed away that word or phrase some how leave with them. And just like their name; when you hear it you instantly think of them. And sometimes it's even a smell, like the smell of a velvet cake. My Mother had perfume that smelled exactly like Velvet Cake, so when I smell Velvet Cake, I instantly think of her. Then this wound in my chest begins to open, as if I'm re-living the fact she's gone all over again. 

  The reason I bring this up is because Last week on Saturday the 17th was my moms one year, and it got me thinking of all the plans her and I had thought up. Going to Vegas, Meeting some more famous people, going to see Rascal Flatts. 
   Which then had me thinking about plans I one day would want to do with my children when I eventually have them. But then I'd be a Mother to a child, and it makes me sad because what will happen if I pass like my mom did? Will that word have a new meaning to my child? Will he or she, or heck even they feel like that word has no meaning? 

    My point is, is it just me or does it feel like when someone you loved and knew for so long. Says, smells, and does something that makes them...well them...Suddenly pass those things they said, did, or smelled like somehow go with them. Like you can't eat the same food, smell that same perfume or even hear the phrase without thinking of them and crying? Or is that something that haunts you forever?