Telling my siblings about the lost of my adult son

[Morgan]

It's been almost four months since my son passed away suddenly - he was thirty. I haven't told my siblings. For some reason I just have been able to. When ever I think about letting them know I just can't stop crying. My son passed without having any children, therefore I have no grand babies. My siblings, three of them, all have healthy grand children. Now I'm envious of that. Don't want to be around my family either, it only makes me feel bad about what I was suppose to have. Actually don't want to be friends with anyone who hasn't lost an adult child.
Has anyone else had this problem?

[Lulu]

i think its a feeling we are share that sense of jealously wondering why others have what we have lost. Not wanting to face reality and wishing that some how it will come to us. I hope with time the feelig will demish living that way could be consuming. As for me I faced my reality and Im trying to make the best of life. I wish the same for you . for now you need to go through the emotions and once the aired has cleared you will be able to make that call and you will feel better for it .