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Please share the reason(s) why you joined this site?: Recently lost my father and having a really hard time letting my emotions out....he was my superman, my friend, I was his caregiver since we lost mom.....I'm de vaster by his sudden death but I just can't let it out....

At 1:51pm on October 2, 2014, mary said…: Hi Tracy Im so sorry to hear about your loss---I to am on this site for the same reasons I guess to try and communicate with someone going thru the same type of loss and unfortunately to read your post its like im writing it myself. If you ever want to chat let me know. Again so sorry stay strong!!!

At 1:54pm on October 2, 2014, mary said…: This might sound crazy but it states I posted at 1:51 pm on October 2nd I don't know if it matters but the time is 4:53 p.m.

At 2:29pm on October 2, 2014, Tracey f said…: Hi Mary, it's 2:19 here....
Ya it's good to have someone other than family and friends to talk to.
It's been an overwhelming 4 months...
My dad was diagnosed with colon cancer in May, had surgery may 30, was recovering
Really well then we went to the surgeon 4 weeks later and
He tells us it is a very agressive cancer... Made appt with cancer centre for July 14... We went to our summer home but by week 2 dad was really not well... He's superman but I could tell he was in excruciating pain the day we came home..to make a ling story short I took him straight to emerg that Friday and lost him 1 week later.
I've had to handle all his banking and be the executor and have one brother here who helped me clean out his large home... I haven't had a chance to breathe which was prob a blessing... I just can't believe he's gone.... He's been my side kick all my life... He was super close to my hubby and my son... I spent time with him almost every day since my mom died 5 years ago.... What I don't understand is why I can't let my feeling go...
When I lost my mom I couldn't function for months... I was close to mom but even closer to my dad.... Just wonder if it's going to hit me in the face or if I can actually be this strong?????

At 4:50am on October 3, 2014, mary said…: Wow again Tracy so many things you state are a mirror image!!My heart breaks for you .I to am executor of my dads estate and I lost him 6/15/14 also 4 months ago not expecting it due to heart. I lost my mom May of 2012 her death was a result of cancer like your dad.I also have a brother but 2 sisters. I have been crazy busy going thru all the paper because I present to be so strong. My husband I don't think understands because he still has both his parents. I think you can be that strong unfortunately I feel it will hit but you(we) will get thru it. As weird as it sounds just typing to you helps me because I to don't show my emotions to family or friends. Don't get me wrong I have my occasional outburst of tears in car by myself going to work or errands so who knows. I look forward to keeping in touch with you.

At 5:03am on October 3, 2014, mary said…: I think you can chat privately in chat room you can post for all to see or just one individual as long as they are on at the same time I think????

At 6:16pm on October 7, 2014, Judy Davidson said…: Welcome to Grief Hope Network! Please let us know how we can help. Add your picture to your profile and feel free to share pictures of your loved one so we can get to know you better. Read the blog posts on the Home Page and check out the book recommendations. You can also connect with other members by reading their blog posts and discussions in the forum. Scheduled chat sessions are under the Events tab. We pray that you find Help for Today & Hope for tomorrow...
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