jo alexio, the non stop self destruction and the non stop drinking will numb the pain. I blame God too. I ask why Me? I get not answers. I will continue to try to keep my head clear for my Only Son.The tears just tear me apart when I am alone, the grief is after me like a thief in the night.

Two (2) years today. My (20) year old son shot. I am angry. I just don't enjoy this life without my son. I loss my marriage of 25 years the day our son died. I have no joy. My husband feels the same. I have one promise every night. I'll be in pain for the rest of my life.