Hi All,

I joined this site a long time ago but have been inactive with it.  In five days it will be the first anniversary of my husband's death (Tom - who else?) at barely age 66.  I'm in a really awful place right now - he suffered so much with pancreatic cancer - I was his full time caregiver.  This August will be our 40th wedding anniversary.  Right now I'm not coping well.  It has been a year of MISERY and…