It's been 4 months but it's finally hitting me

[jess]

On September 24 2014 just after 1 am I lost my mother who was battling liver cancer. We has just found out in june and she was gone in 3 months. I lost my mother at 29. In June I will be 30. I live with my father who was married to her for 31 years till the day she died. He been talking to this old childhood girlfriend and I don't like it one bit at all I think it's to soon. It makes me feel like he not honoring my brother and i. My auntie who I turn to in times like this is also morning the lose of her baby sister. I broke down on my best friend tonight I didn't want to since her 5 year old was right their. I had the most wonderful mother. She got through so much and when I need her the most she not here. I feel like I got no one at all. My best friend married and has her daughter to look after. My brother is in his own grief and has his own family. My dad has his new friend and my aunts lost their baby sister. My dad's family and I don't get alone at all. I'm also helping my dad on the farm and paying the bills cleaning the house and cooking. I feEl sad and warn out.

[Judy Davidson]

Hi Jess,

I am so sorry to hear about your mother.  She sounds like a wonderful lady.  Everyone handles and reacts to grief in a different way.  It's normal for everyone's life to feel turned upside down the first year or 2 until a new normal settles in.  I'm glad you shared your feelings.  COmmunication is key to grief recovery.  I hope this site is helpful to you.  Check out the member blogs and forum posts along with the Main Page blogs.  The chat room may be helpful too.  I pray you're able to find Help for Today & Hope for Tomorrow here.

Warmly,

Judy

 

[Cristina D]

Hi Jess,

I know exactly how you feel.  I lost my father last month, I am 26 years old.  He was diagnosed with cancer 2 years ago but I was told that he was doing fine and at one point I was told his cancer was in remission.  When he suddenly got really sick last month and went to the hospital they made it seem like he would only be there for a night or 2.  A few days later his blood pressure crashed one morning, they couldn't get him stable, he was transported to hospice and passed that night.  My sisters live out of state and they are wrapped up in their own families, my father was my only family here so I know how you feel about trying to find someone to turn to.  I hope this website helps you, I'm hoping for the same.  Just take it one day at at time, wihch is what I've been trying to do as well.  Things will get better.

 

-Cristina

[jess]

Thank you cristina. I'm here if u want to chat.