The closer it gets to the one year anniversary of my husbands death the worse i get.....I have buried my grief many times over even pushed myself into a relationship months after he was gone because i couldn't bare the thought of being alone.....I have lost my way I try to maintain my life and have tried to get myself back...but i can i have lost numerous jobs failed going back to school....no matter what i do i just cant overcome this....I feel like im living in a false reality where nothing is real its just a cover to make myself feel like im ok...but im not im not ok no matter how much i want to be .....my smile is gone its not the same my happiness has been taken it wont come back the same way....everything is not ok....
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