Oh my gosh gal! Im truly heart broken over the loss of your little girl. my name is gina and if you want to talk Im in the chat box off and on. I lost my husband and my only living child (my son) and have been coming here for almost 4 years now. I lost my second son  when I was just over 6 months pregnant. OMG I remember how guilty I felt that I couldnt protect him and carry him to full term. I walked around for years punishing myselfand carrying the guilt of it all. I hope you dont do this to yourself my friend.. all I can say is you need alot of time,and to love yourself my friend... take care and I will keep you in my prayers..gina:)