I have lost my grandpa about 3 days ago and it’s been hard but to me I feel like I have been okay. I know I haven’t because at nights I have panic attacks and over think everything. Me and my boyfriend have been dating for awhile now and I have felt weird towards since my grandpa has passed but he has been beside me this whole time. But I don’t know what kind of emotions are happening because I kinda feel no emotion but I do though but I don’t know what it is. Most things feel fine during the day but I get waves through out the day feeling like stuck in a dream and can’t get out of it.