Missing my mom :(

[Ava]

I lost my mother a year and and a half ago to cancer. She had stage 4 colon cancer and as it got worse she grew lung cancer. I was the one to take care of her a lot. I've seen so much for only being 12 when she left me. I've sat in a hospital room for many hours at night. I've prayed in a hospital more than I have in church My mom was told she only had 18 months to live. But was so strong she lived for 4 years. In those 4 years she did everything with me and my sister. Niagra falls, Disney, 2 cruises, family vacations to Maine and New Hampshire. My mom was my everything. I find myself crying a lot at night. I get very upset,sad,depressed,angry and so much more. My father is not a big help on my part. I have trouble talking to him All the time.... Me being a teenage girl with only a dad really sucks sometimes. I feel lonely at night. I cry for hours lacking sleep and having to get up so early the next morning to only deal with more unnecessary stuff in school. the kids,the work, the teachers. It all sickens me. If anyone has a similar situation please feel free to reach out to me. I would love the help or any ideas to help my grieving process. :(

[Samantha]

I just lost my mom last Wed the 17th. She had stage 4 cancer. We just found out about the cancer not even a week before she passed. The cancer caused weakened blood vessels in her brain and one ruptured causing massive bleeding. She could not clot normally due to the cancer. The blood did irreversible damage to her brain within seconds. They declared her brain dead at the hospital. Even though her heart and lungs were working (lungs with love support) they still consider brain death actual death. We had to take her off life support. I can't fathom this. Everything happened so quick and so fast I can't believe it happened. I miss my mom so much too. She was way too young to pass and I am way to young. I am sorry for your loss and I feel your pain.

[Natalie]

I know how you feel I lost my mom 8 months ago she was my only parent I had she was my rock I spent most nights with her in the hospital she had cervical cancer but it grew to her lungs and brain and mouth it hurt to see her in so much pain I miss her so bad and like you I lost her at 12 years old

[Anna Wyatt]

Oh my dear, my heart goes out to you,Are there any groups with young people in your area that you can meet with in person?I am new to this site and yours was the only post I've read so far,because I am much much older than you and am so heartbroken about losing my father,whom I adored,I feel a little guilty,cause I had him for so long.I can,however relate to the countless trips and stays in the hospitals with prayers and tears.Sometimes I'd feel mad at God,but I have to admit reading the New Testament and finding some powerful passages helped me get through some of the lowest worst times.Like "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me".Used that one a lot.God bless you,my prayer for you and all of us grieving is that this pain is not in vain.We will become stronger better amazing people to honor our lost loved ones.I pray for peace that surpasses all understanding,because no matter what tour age there are some answers we will never get until we meet our creator.Love,Anna

[Susan Gavin]

I can relate. I lost my brother to esophageal cancer. He was diagnosed in October 2014 and passed away January 2015. He was stage 4 before he had any symptoms.It was and still remains the hardest day of my life. My mother was my rock and my support. I feel bad she was so worried about me that she didn't ever get to fully grieve for him and he was the love of her life as was I. She passed away the same day as my brother in 2015. My mother survived lymphoma cancer, had 95% blockage in one leg and 75% in the other and survived that surgery. She developed COP and that really took her down. I took care of both of them. I spent 6 mos in the hospital total with my brother and mother. If I believed I would see them again or if I had some sign from them that they were alright and in a better place I believe I could get through this, but I have had no sign and I have lost my faith so now I am just a robot living day by day. I also lost my only children - my dogs which probably seems like nothing after losing a brother or a parent, but they were my only stable left in my hometown. I moved back to Macon from Atlanta after 30 years to be with my mother and brother and now they are gone and I am lost. Family was everything to me.

[Anna Wyatt]

Dear Susan,Do you read the Bible? I kinda dappled on and off for years but when my dad passed,I thought the family would come together and grieve closely.Well,that's not what happened.Instead my family grieved quietly in their own way,I guess.All I know is they and my friends seemed to be avoiding me.Maybe my grief was too much for them.My husband got tired of my crying and constant grief.I couldn't function.I am still struggling.Especially when I have a rough day or fight with husband I just miss him so much.He was my rock.I do have to say though little by little Im improving. people are noticing it.I joined a group called griefshare.They meet weekly,it's been very helpful.Please check it out on line.The bible has given me hope that I will see him again.Read 1 Corinthians and 2 Corinthians.Romans too, Talks about heaven and how because Christ died and rose we will also.We will have glorified bodies and in Heaven there will be no sickness,no death, no tears,no pain.Please reach out to a pastor,grief support group,church anything.We cannot and should not go through this painful journey alone. Anna


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Susan Gavin said:

I can relate. I lost my brother to esophageal cancer. He was diagnosed in October 2014 and passed away January 2015. He was stage 4 before he had any symptoms.It was and still remains the hardest day of my life. My mother was my rock and my support. I feel bad she was so worried about me that she didn't ever get to fully grieve for him and he was the love of her life as was I. She passed away the same day as my brother in 2015. My mother survived lymphoma cancer, had 95% blockage in one leg and 75% in the other and survived that surgery. She developed COP and that really took her down. I took care of both of them. I spent 6 mos in the hospital total with my brother and mother. If I believed I would see them again or if I had some sign from them that they were alright and in a better place I believe I could get through this, but I have had no sign and I have lost my faith so now I am just a robot living day by day. I also lost my only children - my dogs which probably seems like nothing after losing a brother or a parent, but they were my only stable left in my hometown. I moved back to Macon from Atlanta after 30 years to be with my mother and brother and now they are gone and I am lost. Family was everything to me.

[Patricia Caudle]

Hello my name is Patricia I loss the love of my life. A awesome husband , father and a grandfather at age 47 . I feel so loss cant sleep taking mediation like freaking crazy. .So stressed out about life. I always think he's coming in the front door.

[Patricia Caudle]

Can even finish my story. I'm 44 years old
I get so lonely at times and feeling like a freaky roller coaster.