I lost my husband in April of 2012 - not a year yet.  Between us there are 8 adult children that I am now responsible to.  It has been an amazing blessing sharing this loss with the kids but I feel like while I have been there for them, I haven't been there for myself.  I have no idea how to move beyond the internal despair and loneliness.  I keep up a pretty good mask when people are around but once I am alone, the feelings come back and ht me hard.  My husband was diagnosed with cancer at…

I lost my husband in April of 2012 - not a year yet.  Between us there are 8 adult children that I am now responsible to.  It has been an amazing blessing sharing this loss with the kids but I feel like while I have been there for them, I haven't been there for myself.  I have no idea how to move beyond the internal despair and loneliness.  I keep up a pretty good mask when people are around but once I am alone, the feelings come back and ht me hard.  My husband was diagnosed with cancer at…