on april 22nd 2013 my precious baby boy came into this world at 12:48pm we heard him cry twice then the room went silent he stopped breathing the had to put a breathing to in to help him breath. his lungs weren't fully developed and he was trying to use his heart to pump blood to him and his deceased sister who never had a chance to live because they never separated in the womb so she was attached to his chest just a little hand and foot they shared a bottom lip so there was no way they…

I lost my mom on Saturday, July 29, 2013.  She was 58 years old.  I still don't have the autopsy results.  Not knowing what caused her death is driving me crazy on top of the horrific loss itself.  We were very close and talked and texted everyday.  I miss her so much it's unbearable at times.  I feel like I am going to lose it.  I am trying to carry on but find it harder and harder.  I thought this was suppose to get better with time but it feels like it's getting worse.

Im fairly young for my age and it breaks my heart knowing my mother was taken from me at such a young age. While college is barely beginning and it seems my life is beginning to start, I often look for guidance of my mom, but shes not here physically. It's so hard to continue on when I only have my dad and my older siblings who don't understand how much a mother truly means to a girl. She was my best friend and now I seem lost on a daily basis. I want to ask for help with certain situations…